Saturday I spent some hours at the beach with the kids I was babysitting and while I was there I stood where the sand and water collided and thought about the beauty before me. I was completely lost in God's love and His beauty.
If this is beautiful, or gorgeous, or something incredible...what is Heaven going to be like? If my times of worship here send shivers down my spine and move me to tears, what is it going to be like to stand before the Throne of God and see His beautiful face? The many colors decorating the sky as the sun began to feed light to the other side of the world left me in awe of God's incredible talent and skill in creating a world with details He didn't have to give...
WHAT WILL IT BE LIKE TO BE IN HEAVEN?
Monday morning I awoke to my alarm and for some reason I decided to check my Squad Chat Group on Instagram before I got up...I hardly opened the chat and realized that something serious had happened. I scrolled to the beginning of that particular conversation and began reading...my eyes couldn't scan the words fast enough. As a lump appeared in my throat and a knot in my stomach, I tried to grasp the reality of one of our Squad members standing before Jesus. She was ready, but the accident was so sudden. We would never be able to all see each other again on this earth and that's hard to think about...But the fact that she finished her race and is HOME brings a smile to my face.
We all long to finish our race and to do it well. This life is so temporary and we know that, but for some reason we don't live with the right perspective that at any moment I could go, or you could go...I might never have the chance to tell my family how much I love them again. I might never have the time to tell my friends how much they mean to me. They might be taken home before I see them again. Why don't I use the moments I have to love the people around me...ALL THE TIME?? So often I get frustrated at the stupidest little things in life and I let them affect my relationships with people, but you know what? THAT IS OF NO IMPORTANCE IN LIGHT OF RELATIONSHIPS + ETERNITY! Every moment that I have with someone is a gift...something I can't take for granted.
I love to listen to music while I'm getting ready for the day, but this particular Monday morning I couldn't decide what I wanted to listen to...I knew that anything would bring me to tears + I wasn't into picking a song that would always remind me of this particular moment. I turned on the radio and the first words I heard were, "...Take this world and give me Jesus..."
Yeah, you got it. I cried my eyes out right then and there.
This world is not my home. This isn't where I belong, but I have been sent here for a mission and I don't want to leave until my mission is complete. This world has nothing to offer me, but I can tell you something right now...I HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE GREATEST GIFT MAN CAN RECEIVE + BECAUSE OF THAT, I HAVE SOMETHING TO OFFER THE WORLD.
The past couple days I have found myself thinking about life and it's frailty. When I go, what will I leave behind? Will people be pointed to Jesus or will they continue on as if nothing ever happened? Will they look back on my life and the choices I made and see the grace and love of Christ or will they see self and fleshly desires?
I know one thing, I have goals for my future and whether or not I see another day, I hope and pray that those around me will stay strong in Jesus Christ through joy and pain and when they stand before God on judgement day they will hear the words, "Well done, My good and faithful servant." & They will realize that everything was worth it!
Stay strong + faithful in Jesus.
